Review

Sunday, April 17, 2011

take it or leave it.


So I’ve chat with my bff through im few days ago. She told me how she's telling the guy she’s been loved for 2 years about her feeling, and how she's taking it.

I'm AMAZED with her, she's, indisputably, one of the bravest girl I've ever met. She text this guy without a doubt and she said everything clearly, about how she feels, how she can't sleep at night, how she's tired of all those wondering things, everything. 
And that is not the only thing I’m amazed for. She’s even taking that boy answer with good attitude. She admits that it’s painful, but she said that she’s relieved, now she can move on her life and forget about him.
I wish I can be like her you know, has the gut to tell the boy how I felt about him this long time. I feel like a chicken (well, a little chicken to be exact) when I hear my friend's story.
She told me to say what I feel to the boy, because she said one day I have to do it either I’m ready about taking that risk or not. But I told her that I'm afraid of the consequences and I'm just not as brave as she is. Then she told me that I'm afraid of taking the risk and ask me what is my expectation of telling the boy how I feel.
I'm also said that if I say to the boy what I feel I'm afraid of his reaction that thinks of me as a weirdo. But then she tells me one magic sentence that sticks in my hand and giving me (well courage) to tell him what I feel. She said, " Suka sama seseorang itu ngga salah sal..". It hits my heart, real hard. And she also said my feeling that afraid of what if he thinks of me as a weirdo that making me looks like a weirdo.
oh yes, another great lines from her :

" Sal cinta itu simple, take it or leave it."- Miss.TN


She really giving me a brightening side that night, I'm crying actually, crying of thinking what a fool I am keeping this feeling for so long and do nothing about it.

But when I’m keep thinking about it, I keep stepping back. Holding back my feeling and waiting for something (well a miracle maybe) to be happen. 
so, should i take it or leave it? i guess leave (for now).

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

the taxi drivers


Hello everyone!!

Now I would like to share some stories about the taxi drivers. Why? Because I think these people are good people. 
When I first moved to Jakarta 4 years ago, I've used taxi a lot. You know, because of the safety things. 
So since that time, I've been hearing some of good stories of how these people had struggle their life for. Most of them are not the original Jakarta inhabitant. Like me, they're having their own hometown. I usually asked how long they have been in Jakarta, and I always shocked when I heard their answer. They have been in here for a long time. Usually they come to Jakarta to gambling with their fate, trying to be a successful people, to be happy, to be better than what they already are, but in the end they're ended up behind the steering wheel. Even so, I have a high respect for these people. They're not giving up, they're still fighting their life. They’re still trying to make their family as comfort as they can be. 

There is one taxi driver that I can't forget until now. He said a lot of things that makes me realize how lucky my life is. He's a father of three girls. During his life, he has been driving a taxi. But with that status, he somehow can manage the better life education for his daughters until they're all can taste the university chair on one of the greatest Indonesian State University, UI. One of his daughters even made it to Japan to taste her higher education with scholarship. At that moment I salute to the daughter for having that huge spirit. But then I realize that they wouldn't made it without his father, a person that taking a good care of their expenses, a person that picking up them with his taxi, a person that love them. With those three wonderful daughters, somehow this man still can give his best advice for me. He said that I have to love my mother more and more faithful to my religion. He also can predict something! The day I go on his cab is the day I fell in love with that boy (the boy I’ve always talked on my words), and he knows it, he said that I will get married young and with the person from my college. I don't believe in fortune, but well we still can hoping it will become true if it’s a good thing right?

So back to the taxi drivers story...I still amaze on how these people running their life. I ask about their experiences also while driving a cab along Jakarta, and again, I get amazed. Sometimes they get a passenger that doesn't want to pay, instead of get angry, they're letting it go and permit that passengers enter their home with relieved. They’re also sometimes get the drunken passengers that will throw up on their car and get gone with their freakin small brain without even giving any extra money for the taxi driver to cleaning his car.

Few days ago I take a taxi after going out with my wags friends, and guess what?? I get amazed again. He has been coming to Jakarta since 1969, hoping to studying at STAN and become a tax employee, but as he said "gagal maning,gagal maning". So he ends up driving a taxi. He tells me about Jakarta history, how's people around here change, how's trees being cut and how we’re having lack of good air, how's the government starting to be care about themselves rather than their citizen. He's a smart man also, he knows almost all big airport and harbor in Indonesia very well. 

Another taxi driver I found amazing is the driver from taxi I ride in when I am in Singapore. He's an old man, he's 71 years old and he's still driving a taxi! When my uncle asked why he's still working instead of staying at home he said, “In here, we don't work, we don't eat." That's an amazing spirit I heard from such an old man. And we had that spirit in here also, in Indonesia from our taxi drivers who spends their time almost all day long to earn money for the life of their family.

So, what I meant from telling this story is that: they're still exist, some people in this mean city that fight their life through the road and steering with unfinished spirit and smile even though they're know that they're not having as much as others people did, but they're still thankful for it and put on their smile.
Thank you sir drivers wherever you are, you've giving me many motivations and inspirations to live this life more gratefully. It's a shame that I don't know your name, but still thank you.

o yes, a little advice : trying to know your taxi driver more when you riding on a cab. who knows you'll get an amazing story that can inspire and motivate you ;)

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

april wish

hola amigos! 

it has been several days since I’ve posted anything on this blog.
well I’ve been busy with working on my bachelor thesis (LIE) or...getting stress think about my bachelor thesis (TRUTH).
so..it's already APRIL!! Time is moving so fast, right??
it's only 3 months left before the soft cover deadline *banging my head on the table*
but anyway let's not ruin today with those kind of thinking. 

so....it's the beginning of April! and every new beginning has a new hope right?
so here they are, My April Wish :
1. Finishing my bachelor thesis (amen..amen..amen..amen..amen..super amen..)
2. Find a job!! (Hopefully in the magazine)
3. Get a scholarship for my Master's Degree (amen again to this one)
4. Upgrading my guitar skill (until I can be like slash or maybe santana, hehe ;p)
5. Spend my Monday and Thursday with sunah fasting every week.
6. Finish a half or even a quarter of my story.
7. Be a faithful daughter.

That's all my wishes for this month. Hopefully i will make it all happen. 

So, what's your wish for this month fellas??

Happy wishing and of course working it!! ;)