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Wednesday, August 31, 2011

EID MUBARAK 1432 H!!



EID MUBARAK 1432 Hijriah!!
Minal Aidzin Wal Faidzin - Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Batin

time flies. i guess that phrase is absolutely right. suddenly we've reach this holy day, Ied Fitri. for me, it's a bittersweet feeling. it's sad Ramadhan month is end, it's also exciting that we're facing this fitrah day and hope that our act of devotion on previous days when we wolk on our fasting will be received well by the almighty Allah SWT. i've been blessed by many things on this Ramadhan month, and there is nothing I can do except for thanking Allah and be more faithful to Him. anyway, have a wonderful Lebaran day fellas!! let's eat opor, ketupat, semur and many moooree special Ied meal!! ;)


Wednesday, August 17, 2011

INDONESIA 66



DIRGAHAYU INDONESIA

semoga di hari jadi ke 66 ini Indonesia bisa merdeka dari korupsi, merdeka dari kemiskinan, dan merdeka dari perselisihan antar WNI, amin.

Maju terus Indonesia-ku!! Jayalah Indonesia!!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

[K-Variety Show Review] SBS' Running Man (2010)

Hello hello. It’s been a while since I posted anything on this blog. Well it’s because I’m busy preparing for my thesis defense, and Alhamdulillah I’m holding my Bachelor’s Degree right now. Well, I’m still working on my revision, but thank to Allah the hard part a.k.a the defense is over.

 
don't walk, run!!

Anyway, I’m currently watching to this series called, Running Man, it’s Korean reality/game show, and from my perspective this is definitely the best reality show I’ve ever watched!!! It’s amazingly hilarious, from the beginning until the ending you’ll be chortling a lot. This show really is a sack of laugh.

So basically this show is a bit leaning to a game show, that’s why I called it reality/game show above. The show tells a story when the cast, which are seven man included the host (yes, the host is also playing the game, isn’t it freaking funny??) and two or maybe 3 guest stars (depend on what situation they’re in) are divided into two teams and locked in landmark. The game is when they’ve to find clue or prize to get out from that place in the end. Now it’s seemed so ordinary, right? Several people, divided into two teams, locked in landmark, compete to find the clue, and out of that place in the end? But no, it’s not ordinary, the game they’re playing to get the prize/clue is extremely extraordinary, it’s a simple game but the game that ourselves will never ever think of it. That’s why I love this show, it’s simple yet unusual. Beside the cast is soo soo funny, they playing this game as if they’re living their everyday life, it’s so natural and even sometimes they showed the set-up or break scene in the show, that’s why people called it reality show, because it’s real!


The basic cast itself are Yoo Jae-Suk, which is the host; Ji Suk-Jin, which is the older cast join the show; Gary a.k.a peaceful Gary, which is a Korean rapper (fyi, he’s my favorite cast, I’ll get lol for just imagining his “peaceful” face); Kim Jong-Kook, which is the strongest cast; Ha-Ha, which is the funniest gesture imitator of the cast; Lee Kwang-Soo which is the cinderella/step sister of the cast that keep bullied by others; and Song Joong-Ki, which is the prettiest boy of the cast. They’re usually accompanied by two or three guest stars, sometimes two girls with one boy, or just two girls straight.

In the race of searching the prize or clue, the cast will put on an uniform with their name tags on their back and whoever name tags get dislodge by rival team members will be disqualified from the race. On the race they’ll run to get the prize or clue before others team get it. Oh and another thing, the losers team will get punishment while the winning team is free from the landmark and going home.

you can also watch the first episode here for a preview, and if you decided that like it and want to know the rest of it, you can right away download it here .

So, ready to laugh a lot??

Happy watching everyone!!

fyi. For you girls who love Korean boys, they’ll be some of the surprising guest stars on this show from Korean series/boy band you might love ;)

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

love (isn't) hurt


How can people say that love is hurt?? If love hurts, why you love someone? To hurting yourself? Why don't you just cut your pulse with razor if that so?
"Love Hurts"
I still don't understand with this sentence.  I mean how? Why?? If love hurts then maybe you don't love that someone or something. Maybe you push yourself to love it. If love hurts, why you can't leave it? Taking a good care of yourself, love yourself more than loving someone who hurts you.
I know I'm not in the place to talk about this thing, because I'm "that" person who love someone who doesn't love me back and just sitting around here writing words on my blog without any movement to getting any closer to him. But I wouldn't say that love hurts, because loving that someone is something that makes me happy. How I stare at him, how I dreamed of him in the night, etc. I'm happy doing all of that things and the hope of to be with him, I must say, it makes me happier and have another things to be hope for in this life, another things I chased for.
So again, why love hurts? Maybe the people who said this things considered love as the "hurting things" because they pushed themselves to be loving that someone and being obsessed with it until it’s hurting them because they can't having their someone.
For some couples who ended their story happily ever after, they wouldn't say that love hurts, because love is amazing for them. Maybe sometimes when they arguing, they get stressed and cry, but eventually they're back in love again in such a beautiful and wonderful way.
So don't say love hurts, because with that thought we will consider that love is always hurt, but if we stick to the positive way that say love is beautiful and then love will always be a beautiful thing. 
You know how people said that, "Love is a splendid thing”, right?? It is right, it is splendid.
Well I don't really have a good love life right now, but I wouldn't said that love is hurt because I know someday I will find my love that will lead me to the splendid world I've always expected for.

So…How’s your opinion? Is love hurt? Or is it splendid??

Happy figuring out yourself amigos!!


add.notes.a few lyrics from the song that inspired my writings above:

 love hurts
but sometimes it's a good hurt and it feels like i'm alive
love sings
when it transcends the bad things
have a heart and try me
'cause without love i won't survive


Friday, June 10, 2011

waiting : sucks or worth?


Waiting sucks right? But sometimes it's worth. You know how people said that “good things will happen for those who waits", in fact there are some song that uses this lines.
You know how in this world they are negative and positive pole. It works on this waiting thing. Sometimes we feel bored, we feel unhappy, sad, sucks because of waiting. But on the other side, when we're waiting enough and we really put our patient into it, we will feel extremely happy, we feel great when that thing are in our hands.
So the real question is, do we or don’t we can handle the waiting? Because believe me, no matter how sucks it will be, no matter how long it will be, no matter how bored it will be. It will be worth in the end. Because it really is amazing thing that will happen when you willing to wait a little more
:)

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

quitter or winner?



People tend to leave the situation they’re not comfortable with. Well I tend to do that. Have you ever heard that "Winners don't quit and quitters don't win?", Or maybe a little simpler one, "Don't quit when you face something hard", or maybe the simplest, "Quit never solve anything". Well I've heard all of those phrases and every time I heard those I promise to myself that I won't quit no matter what situation I face. But well promise is just promise, I never can do all those phrases when I face a problem either its big or even small, I tend to make excuses to quit. It's not good, I know, but I'm just ordinary people that have heart and confusion all over my head, so when I say I quit, it didn't mean I quit for good, I quit for a while then I try to back and solve that problem. Because sometime quit is the easier way, right?

Well let me tell you something people, it isn't, it really isn’t, it will broke your future into pieces.

I've been a quitter since a kid, I know it’s bad and know that bad habit influencing my attitudes, making me an irresponsible one and tend to hang on somebody older and stronger than me every time the problem comes. But I thank Allah for making me my new me. Because of one situation I can't tell in this blog because its personal, I change, I promise myself to not being a quitter and start being a winner because we all are winners, I remember when I'm attending a seminar few weeks ago, my lecturer, Mr. Arnold said that we all born a winners, hell yeah we are a winners, so why oh why we spend our days to be a quitters that carry us to be a loser? no I don't want that. So from now, promise me, promise yourself that no matter what situation we face, we will never ever even think about quit because when you quit you'll have to go around to find a way back to entry door and if you're not so lucky you'll never going to the entry door and you'll stay outside forever.
I will never quit, because I'm a winner, so do you people, we're all a winner
;)

Sunday, May 15, 2011

single with hope


Just quote the title from Kurt Hummel’s lines on Glee Season 2. Found it true and exactly what I feel right now.
 

Just for a little preview I've been loving the boy for 3 years and until now I'm still single with hope, hope of getting the boy's love, hope of telling the boy how I feels, hope of forget the boy. 

What's hope actually is? Well from the English dictionary hope is mean: To wish for something with expectation of its fulfillment.

For me, hope is all I've been through in life. We never left a second in this life without a hope in our heart and mind. Hope of being someone, hope of having something, hope of getting someone, hope, hope, hope, hope...everything.

Some people may say that hope is nothing without working. Well that's right. Absolutely right. For the entire single ladies/boys out there, include me, we're hoping but we still working, even working on getting him,/her telling him,/her or forget him/her. So on this night as what I would said as my muddle night, I would like to say keep hoping! Because hope is not a crime, hope is something that can get us anything we want or getting close to that anything. Hoping is our motivators on chasing someone or something we expect. Hoping is our energy to chasing it. Hoping is our silent supporter to keep pursues it. Hoping is everything. Just keep hoping but don't forget to still working on it. 


after all it's not so bad to keep hoping things right? because  in the end ,the fulfillment of having that  "something" is because we hoping that "something" before. 
so, ready to hoping with some working??

Happy hoping everyone ;)

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

when i have so much to say


now and then i try to find a place in my mind
where you can stay
you can stay awake forever
how do i live without the ones i love?
time still turn the pages of the book it's burned
place and time always on my mind
i have so much to say but you're so far away
sleep tight i'm not afraid
the ones that we love are here with me
lay away a place for me
cause as soon as i'm done i'll be on my way to live eternally
how do i live without the ones i love
time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
place and time always on my mind
and the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
when i have so much to say and you're so far away



been listening to this song back and forth tonight. what a beautiful lyrics, right? it express my feeling tonight, the feels of losing my special one, my other soul, my guardian, my everything.

some people said that you'll never know the feeling of losing someone until you lost someone special in your life. it's true. absolute true. it's been a year since i lost him and none of the second in my life i stop thinking about him. many people said that as time goes by the pain will also fade away. it's not true. totally untrue. in fact, as time goes by, the feelings grow bigger and bigger. you know the feelings of waiting someone to coming back but he's not coming? when you counting days, looking at the calendars, and imagining what will happen if he's still here? the time when i reached something amazing in my life and ready to share it with him, but i can't. the time when you feel like you stuck in life and needs someone to give you the wisdom words that can make you get up and live this life again. i'm still waiting, waiting for me to meet him again, to hug him again, to  be kissed in my forehead again, to be spoiled again. even though the pain is still here but i know he sees me, he sees my family, the only thing different is our sight now, he sees me from the above, not from the equal sight as before.

we can't avoid separation, in life, either we like it or not, it will always happen. what we can do is prepares our self, be tough, be strong, and be ready to face it. 

one thing i gets in mind by losing my special one is that Allah and him loves me and my family so much to feel this because when he left us, he knows we strong enough to handle this and that way i know that he believe in us and that believe is the believe that will lead us to continue this temporary life when he live eternally up there.

it has been a year


It's been a year.
A year without your smile.
A year without your laugh.
A year without you sneak into my room door every morning.
A year without you in dining table.
A year without your sisha smoke.
A year without your comment to what I wear.
A year without your enthusiasm to weekend.
A year without your cough sound.
A year without your wisdom words.
A year without your story of life.
A year without your lesson about my college subject.
A year without your comfort hug.
A year without your kiss on my forehead.
It's been a year.

But it's been a year with your presence every single time in my heart and mind.
I'm sincere now dad because I know you're in heaven.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

take it or leave it.


So I’ve chat with my bff through im few days ago. She told me how she's telling the guy she’s been loved for 2 years about her feeling, and how she's taking it.

I'm AMAZED with her, she's, indisputably, one of the bravest girl I've ever met. She text this guy without a doubt and she said everything clearly, about how she feels, how she can't sleep at night, how she's tired of all those wondering things, everything. 
And that is not the only thing I’m amazed for. She’s even taking that boy answer with good attitude. She admits that it’s painful, but she said that she’s relieved, now she can move on her life and forget about him.
I wish I can be like her you know, has the gut to tell the boy how I felt about him this long time. I feel like a chicken (well, a little chicken to be exact) when I hear my friend's story.
She told me to say what I feel to the boy, because she said one day I have to do it either I’m ready about taking that risk or not. But I told her that I'm afraid of the consequences and I'm just not as brave as she is. Then she told me that I'm afraid of taking the risk and ask me what is my expectation of telling the boy how I feel.
I'm also said that if I say to the boy what I feel I'm afraid of his reaction that thinks of me as a weirdo. But then she tells me one magic sentence that sticks in my hand and giving me (well courage) to tell him what I feel. She said, " Suka sama seseorang itu ngga salah sal..". It hits my heart, real hard. And she also said my feeling that afraid of what if he thinks of me as a weirdo that making me looks like a weirdo.
oh yes, another great lines from her :

" Sal cinta itu simple, take it or leave it."- Miss.TN


She really giving me a brightening side that night, I'm crying actually, crying of thinking what a fool I am keeping this feeling for so long and do nothing about it.

But when I’m keep thinking about it, I keep stepping back. Holding back my feeling and waiting for something (well a miracle maybe) to be happen. 
so, should i take it or leave it? i guess leave (for now).

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

the taxi drivers


Hello everyone!!

Now I would like to share some stories about the taxi drivers. Why? Because I think these people are good people. 
When I first moved to Jakarta 4 years ago, I've used taxi a lot. You know, because of the safety things. 
So since that time, I've been hearing some of good stories of how these people had struggle their life for. Most of them are not the original Jakarta inhabitant. Like me, they're having their own hometown. I usually asked how long they have been in Jakarta, and I always shocked when I heard their answer. They have been in here for a long time. Usually they come to Jakarta to gambling with their fate, trying to be a successful people, to be happy, to be better than what they already are, but in the end they're ended up behind the steering wheel. Even so, I have a high respect for these people. They're not giving up, they're still fighting their life. They’re still trying to make their family as comfort as they can be. 

There is one taxi driver that I can't forget until now. He said a lot of things that makes me realize how lucky my life is. He's a father of three girls. During his life, he has been driving a taxi. But with that status, he somehow can manage the better life education for his daughters until they're all can taste the university chair on one of the greatest Indonesian State University, UI. One of his daughters even made it to Japan to taste her higher education with scholarship. At that moment I salute to the daughter for having that huge spirit. But then I realize that they wouldn't made it without his father, a person that taking a good care of their expenses, a person that picking up them with his taxi, a person that love them. With those three wonderful daughters, somehow this man still can give his best advice for me. He said that I have to love my mother more and more faithful to my religion. He also can predict something! The day I go on his cab is the day I fell in love with that boy (the boy I’ve always talked on my words), and he knows it, he said that I will get married young and with the person from my college. I don't believe in fortune, but well we still can hoping it will become true if it’s a good thing right?

So back to the taxi drivers story...I still amaze on how these people running their life. I ask about their experiences also while driving a cab along Jakarta, and again, I get amazed. Sometimes they get a passenger that doesn't want to pay, instead of get angry, they're letting it go and permit that passengers enter their home with relieved. They’re also sometimes get the drunken passengers that will throw up on their car and get gone with their freakin small brain without even giving any extra money for the taxi driver to cleaning his car.

Few days ago I take a taxi after going out with my wags friends, and guess what?? I get amazed again. He has been coming to Jakarta since 1969, hoping to studying at STAN and become a tax employee, but as he said "gagal maning,gagal maning". So he ends up driving a taxi. He tells me about Jakarta history, how's people around here change, how's trees being cut and how we’re having lack of good air, how's the government starting to be care about themselves rather than their citizen. He's a smart man also, he knows almost all big airport and harbor in Indonesia very well. 

Another taxi driver I found amazing is the driver from taxi I ride in when I am in Singapore. He's an old man, he's 71 years old and he's still driving a taxi! When my uncle asked why he's still working instead of staying at home he said, “In here, we don't work, we don't eat." That's an amazing spirit I heard from such an old man. And we had that spirit in here also, in Indonesia from our taxi drivers who spends their time almost all day long to earn money for the life of their family.

So, what I meant from telling this story is that: they're still exist, some people in this mean city that fight their life through the road and steering with unfinished spirit and smile even though they're know that they're not having as much as others people did, but they're still thankful for it and put on their smile.
Thank you sir drivers wherever you are, you've giving me many motivations and inspirations to live this life more gratefully. It's a shame that I don't know your name, but still thank you.

o yes, a little advice : trying to know your taxi driver more when you riding on a cab. who knows you'll get an amazing story that can inspire and motivate you ;)

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

april wish

hola amigos! 

it has been several days since I’ve posted anything on this blog.
well I’ve been busy with working on my bachelor thesis (LIE) or...getting stress think about my bachelor thesis (TRUTH).
so..it's already APRIL!! Time is moving so fast, right??
it's only 3 months left before the soft cover deadline *banging my head on the table*
but anyway let's not ruin today with those kind of thinking. 

so....it's the beginning of April! and every new beginning has a new hope right?
so here they are, My April Wish :
1. Finishing my bachelor thesis (amen..amen..amen..amen..amen..super amen..)
2. Find a job!! (Hopefully in the magazine)
3. Get a scholarship for my Master's Degree (amen again to this one)
4. Upgrading my guitar skill (until I can be like slash or maybe santana, hehe ;p)
5. Spend my Monday and Thursday with sunah fasting every week.
6. Finish a half or even a quarter of my story.
7. Be a faithful daughter.

That's all my wishes for this month. Hopefully i will make it all happen. 

So, what's your wish for this month fellas??

Happy wishing and of course working it!! ;)

Friday, March 25, 2011

untitled


Leave unsaid, unspoken
Eyes wide shut, unopened
You and me always be
You and me always between the lines


So I’ve been listening to this song back and forth. This song tells a story of loving someone who doesn’t love you back. How people said that music is describe what we feels is exactly what i feel right now.

I’ve been loving this man for 3 years now, he’s one of the student in my campus. You know how’s the feeling when you love someone so much right? when you blushing every time he’s around, when your heart stop beating every time he passes around you, when you put on your clumsy face and body when he near you, when you stare at him behind dark glasses, when you smile happily every time your friends send you his latest pics, when you always wondering what time he will realize your feeling for him, when your mind says to give up but you can’t because your heart fail you to do it. 

He is everything I’ve been waiting for, everything I’ve been picturing of how my perfect man is.

I love him. I do. But here I am facing my own love alone while keep wishing and hoping he will turning his head and realizing I’ve been here the whole time, waiting for him.

Just a chance to know him more, to make he realizes my existence, to make he knows what I feel, would be countless.

lucky

sometime when i look at her picture, her family, her friends, her life, i would say :
 "Oh, what a lucky girl she is. life is so unfair...how it can happen? when there's one lucky girl that barely not lack anything  and there's another girl (like me) that lack something." 
but then i realized what if  I'm that lucky girl? what if people beneath me say the exact same things to me? and from that moment i realize that nobody is perfect, I have to be always grateful for what I am now, what I have given, because out there so many people not as lucky as I am. there are even homeless people who sleep under the bridge or any places that they can use as their rest place. just one underline sentence i have in mind : 
to be birth in this world, being alive with family around and my needs compliance are the luckiest things for me.  
the hell if there's luckier girl than me that can get everything she wants everything she asks because i know someday i will have that special moment too when i feel and say :

"Oh yes, I'm the luckiest girl in this world!" 

so, always be grateful amigo, because we are lucky people :)

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

dear you. . .


dear boy
I know I’m not good at writing words, story, lyrics, or even poem. but all I do know is when I think of you there are many things I can write.

dear boy
It has been 3 years since we have met and none of the second in my life I have ever not thinking about you.

dear boy
I don’t want you to know me because I’m afraid. afraid of knowing the truth about how you feels about me. 

dear boy
Let me make you my dream man, because only by dreaming I can be happy with you.

questioning



Questioning : if your biggest dreams could come true? does it also means that your biggest nightmare could also come true?

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

keep breathing


Keep breathing. Simple two words at first, useful and inspiring two words at last.
On every bad thing when we can't barely do anything all we can do is just keep breathing.
When we're hearing bad news. 
When we're hearing good news. 
When we're facing an outrageous incident. 
Or even when we bored to death on doing something.
On every part of our journey in life we just keep breathing.
Because that’s all we can do when nothing else we can do.

Monday, March 21, 2011

a moment to be inspired

2.33 am and I'm still awake listening to some music while opening up some sites. when suddenly this song came up on my track list. i used to love this song a lot until another song catch my ear and  i forgot  (just like that) about this song (oh how evil am I *glancing to my self*). 
this song sang by Brendan James and the title is All I Can See. listening to this song always makes me inspired  to embrace everything i have pass over this life. the lyrics really touched me, it makes me realize on how we supposed to be grateful on our life that has been given. and makes me realize on how many things i haven't done, earn, reach, and see on this life. the things i have to struggling this life for, the things to construe my life. so from now on i will promise to myself that i will never wasting my time again and to stop being a lazy person because there are so many things waiting for me to be seen  and done out there.

so,, are you ready to be inspired ?? here it is..



those who journey can easily understand
the more they see, the more they'll learn, the more that they will be
so this i swear to you, and this i swear to me
I'll never rest till I've seen all i can see
no, I'll never rest till I've seen all i can see

enjoy!! ;)

define life # 2


life is like a highway, it takes us on a long journey until we reach our final destination.

define life # 1


age is like a level in life as a game. when you reach higher level, you will also play a harder game.

Friday, March 18, 2011

the moment you realize you're an adult


The moment you realize you’re an adult:

1. When you visiting someone house and notice some unusual stuff on their coffee table, you want to touch it but you can't because you realize you're an adult.
2. When your mom setting you up with a man that could be your future husband, you realize you're an adult.
3. When you fall in front of people and you hurt your back, yo want to crying out loud but you can't because you realize you're an adult.
4. When you start searching fr heels instead of flats, you realize you're an adult.
5. When you're signing up for a job hunter website, you realize you're an adult.
6. When you look at a calendar and see your 20 something birthday is not so far anymore, you realize you're an adult.


ps. the word "you" is actually means me. oh yes, I'm an adult now :|
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